Japan

Praying for them. Goodnight. Be with them, Lord, be with us.

So This Is It

I am thinking that her deleting he lj has given me my answer. She really is done with me. She doesn't want me to find her at all. It's over. This is it. I no longer have a best friend. Somehow I thought it would hurt less than this considering all the shit she has put me through, but actually I am getting a major headache thinking about it, of course that could be due to the fact that I have to go to work soon. Uggh. Just what I need angry customers. Well you know what? I still have friends who mean the world to me and who treat me like a true friend should be treated, so like the journal is title, I'm Still Breathing.

No More Pretending

I think I am done pretending I mean anything to my ex best friend. She doesn't care for me, never did and even though I sat around moping that I had lost someone important to me. Even though I sent her a long message only to get no reply, even though it hurts me like a bitch, I cannot sit here and pretend like she was an angel. She treated me like dirt and even though it's hard for me to accept that I let her take advantage of me and even though it sucks that I let her use me and it sucks she never cared. I need to just let it go. I need to move on. She never loved me like a sister and she never will. I will cherish those good memories we had, but that's as far as it goes. No looking back. No more pretending.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas. This Christmas will be especially hard for me.

Tron: Legacy

Go see it! It's great!

Through With This!

I'm done. Listen up! I will call the cops if you come around my home or my anywhere near my friends, I will file a harassment claim. I have kept the messages. I have all the evidence I need to make my claim If you come around here you are trespassing. And that is against the law. I am through with second chances. I have given you a million chances. I tried my best to make this work, but it didn't. I can't do this anymore. I do not need this drama in my life. I am a grown woman. I do not need this middle school drama anymore. I am very sick of it. I am through trying. I want to just live my life and be happy. I have done so much for you, spent so much for you, and ask nothing in return but friendship and respect. And you cannot give me that. So be it. Fine. But I am not having it. I don't want this in my life. And believe me I will call the cops if you come around here. I have already blocked your numbers. And you seem to have already blocked me from social networking sites, so that's that. We do not need to play games. Let's just move on and do our own thing. It obviously was not meant to be. And by the way, a gift is a gift is a gift. And by law you are not at all obligated to give back anything that was given to you as a gift. I have many witnesses for what progressed tonight. I am by no means threatening anyone. I just want this to be over and done with. No contact whatsoever. No communication. I don't want to see you again. Neither of you. Leave me alone, as well as my loved ones or I promise the cops will be involved. Just please leave me be. Leave me alone. Get out of my life. Please, let's just move on. Goodbye to you.

26 Years Old Today.

I hate to sound selfish, but it's my birthday and I am alone in my room, while everyone is more concerned about my cousin shipping off into the military. Mom pretty much told me, my birthday meal might not be for free. And my husband is working all damn day. He couldn't ask for the day off for me. For me!!! I am pretty sad right now, I feel so alone.