In the Words of Maya Angelou

“People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

And you have made me feel like the lowest form of shit. I can't wait 'til you finally understand the heartache you have caused me. If you hate me so damn much, then why you fucking kill me, the world would be better off without a "retarded, fat, manipulative bitch" anyway.

One Sweet Day

I found out that my best friend from high school, Kathleen Sturdy has been killed in a car accident. She was on her way to visit her dad and went missing for two days. Her car was found off a 300 foot cliff. I am absolutely devastated. I have been crying all day since I have learned of her passing and am finding it hard to cope. She was 25, just like me. I miss her.

It's things like this that make you realize how short and precious life really is. I don't want to lose my friends. I hate even thinking about it. And the weirdest thing happened. At church the service was about true companions. The true friends and relationships in your life that are forever and that you need to cherish for the rest of your life. It was so odd because earlier today we were having such a dilemma trying to figure out what will become our friendship with a certain someone and then Vernon just made things all make sense.

God was sending us a message. He was giving us a sign and even though I am in major mourning right now, I know God is with me and that I will never truly be alone.

Rest In Peace Kathleen. You will live in my heart forever. I'll miss you girl.

I Need This

I need to break out of the norm and do something good for once. I need to live. I hope things go well, if not, it's back to the drawing bored. And that's it, no more trying, I'll just give up.

So Effing Hot, So Effing Bored

It's too hot to do anything, so I am so freakin' bored and Corie's not home, so I am even more bored. Grr. I am also hungry, but there is nothing to eat and nobody home to cook for even if there was. Annoyed. Gonna go find something to do.

I've Learned My Lesson

If I hear a song on the satellite at night or early in the am, I will write it down otherwise it will be impossible to find. I knew I should have pressed info, but it was 7am and I didn't want to wake up Corie. Grrr. Now I'll just hope they will play those two songs again tonight. Damn it, I know they won't though.

Tonight

I do not think I am gonna go out with work buddies,they have no replied. Oh well, Corie and I can still has a party amongst the two of us.