I Knew This Was Going To Happen...

I knew there was going to be a time when my family forgot all about Christmas values, traditions and faithfulness. I just didn't want it to be so soon. We're not doing anything as a family. They put up the tree without us. Dad's putting up the lights by himself. And they want me to decorate the tree by myself, which I refuse to do, it shouldn't be a chore. I am waiting for Corie to decorate with me, although I am really upset because he told me he wouldn't do it if it wasn't the family, so I have to do some mad convincing. :( Tis the season.

Thanksgiving

well, thanks for the nice meal and the time spent with family, thanks for a day without arguing. But I've been thinking not about giving thanks, but about giving. Giving on holidays and birthdays, what I've given and what I've received. Is it really ok to keep something for yourself knowing that someone you love wants it just as much, if not more ?? Is it really ok to give you pretty close friend a gift that was bought and your best friend a gift that was recycled ?? Is it really ok to give your friend something that you like instead of what she wants ?? If it's the thought that counts than how come nobody ever thinks about what they are giving people. I know personally I put a lot of thoughts in the gifts I give, but sometimes I think I put too much thought in them, considering what I get from people is not nearly as special in the thought department. It hurts me.

Speaking of things that hurt me, I have not written in a few days, ok maybe a week and this is all due to the fact that I have been very sad lately, as my mom's sister, my Aunt Gloria, mom's only living full blooded relative left from her family (other than her kids, me and Donny) passed away this past Thursday and the whole family has been very sad. Even going to a convention didn't really cheer us up much, partly due to the fact that the con was in it's first year and highly unorganized, but we did find some really cool stuff and totally bought them. I decided to be generous and get my best friend a shirt that totally broke me. LOL, but whatevers it's what I do to show love.

Speaking of love, with all the love I show to people, I feel very under appreciated. I hate to sound vain, but this Thanksgiving Day, people oughtta be thankful for me.tH

In Your Prayers

Keep us in your prayers. My Aunt Gloria is not responding to medical treatment and my mom's depressed about it and so am I and the rest of the family, so please keep us in your prayers.

Quality Time

It's nice to spend time with someone who is acting like an ass. Uggh!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow Is Another Day

But it is also my 25th birthday. I feel kind of sad though and also very alone. And right now I am still very pissed over what had happened just today. First off Corie and I got into it over a trash bag, but the then quickly fizzled out and then we had an argument cuz he basically said he hated the jacket that I bought him three years ago out of love and it hurt my feelings b/c he basically kinda acted like sentimental value meant nothing to him at all. It sucked. After about an hour of crying and an hour of him explaining why the jacket sucks, he "changes" his mind and says he only said the stuff he said out of anger b/c he hates that the weather is not cold here. We live in Florida mind you. I'm not sure how to feel right now about what he is saying, but I do not know that I'm in a pretty crappy mood and I am not supposed to feel this way the day before my 25th birthday.

Tomorrow Is Another Day

But it is also my 25th birthday. I feel kind of sad though and also very alone. And right now I am still very pissed over what had happened just today. First off Corie and I got into it over a trash bag, but the then quickly fizzled out and then we had an argument cuz he basically said he hated the jacket that I bought him three years ago out of love and it hurt my feelings b/c he basically kinda acted like sentimental value meant nothing to him at all. It sucked. After about an hour of crying and an hour of him explaining why the jacket sucks, he "changes" his mind and says he only said the stuff he said out of anger b/c he hates that the weather is not cold here. We live in Florida mind you. I'm not sure how to feel right now about what he is saying, but I do not know that I'm in a pretty crappy mood and I am not supposed to feel this way the day before my 25th birthday.

Who Can I Count On ??

Well I have a friend who has recently constantly bailed on me and has also has said or done some hurtful things. I am quite sick of her lately and hope she can grow the fuck up. Uggh. The thing is I need her right now b/c she was supposed to make the bride's maids gowns. I'm not sure what to do now. I need to get some measurements done too. Uggh. I hate life right now.

Mom's B-Day

We celebrated it yesterday though. But today we give her a cake, she turns 45, but she won't admit it. LOL. Anyway mine is Friday. Well I'm still kinda waking up and I am too tired to write so I'm outtie.