Leave Her Alone

OMFG! Please get it through your thick head dude! It's friggin' over between the two of you. You hurt her and now she is ready to move on, so friggin let her. Damn you, finally she is at a place that she can be happy and you won't let her b/c you keep trying to talk to her and to see her. Uggh. Get on my last nerve.

Moving on, my friggin' headphones broke. Damnit, now how will I listen to my pod ?? Arrgh. This just pisses me off. Fucking piece of shit earbuds!

So lots of drama happened regarding certain friends. There was one friend who called me a bitch when talking to my best friend. Then there was another who basically slammed my other best friend in a myspace blog.

I wrote the first one is question a message and she replied with two messages back. The first message was to state her case and how she felt I was kind of bitchy. And second was a total retraction and apology for ever meantioning it and asking for my forgiveness. Well I believe in the second chances so I decided to just give her one more go, but honestly she's really never going to be my best bud anyway, nobody can replace my two besties! Ellie and Maya will forever be my sisters.

And now for the second drama , the blog thing. One friend wrote a blog about the other which sparked some major controversy. Then wrote another blog stating she felt she did nothing wrong and to have us talk to her and figure things out. So we did and she still didn't wuite get it, but then moved on and decided that she no longer wants to be the kind of friend she was, but now wants to become a better friend with a different kind of view on what friendship means because he vision was skewed.

In other non dramatic news. Me and my bestest friends and of course my Corie and maybe my cousin are going to Universal Studios/Islands of Adventure this Sat! YATA! I must go now. Until next time.

Much <3

...Still Here

Only I have kind of neglected this thing because not much has been going on lately. I mean, I've been hanging out with my friends more now.

Ellie and Dory spent the night on Friday, Ellie got kinda drunk, it was fun. Maya was supposed to but she had to go to Universal, so she didn't. Yesterday, St. Patty's Day, we went to go get ice cream and went "shopping" at the Bargain Box. Meaning we got so free stuff baby! Dory was supposed to meet us but she had a serious hissy fit and got lost. She hung up on both Corie and Maya and didn't answer the phone when I called her. So I left a message and when she called me she had a major attitude, and I calmly explained to her what happened and what didn't happen and she "apologized" about it, but I still feel that what she did was not right and frankly I felt bad for not invited her to David's Bridal, but now I realize that it would have been a disaster.

Tonight I am so watching LOST, I am so exicted about it. YAYS. Well since obviously I am out of things to say, I must go now. Oh no, I feel a headache coming on. I'm out.

Past 2 AM

And yet I am still up. I'm not really sure why, I am a little tired, but not too much. Right now I am busy thinking about so many things. I am worried about my friends, my girls mean so much to me, and yet I do not think they know. I'm not worried about major things, I'm just worried that what is true, won't be true much longer. I hope no minds are changed because things need to be ok.

Love. It's a tricky thing. When you want it you either don't get it or get it in the worst way. But when you aren't looking for love, it'll find it's way to you and it will be so much better than before. The key is to just relax and let things happen naturally.

I didn't go looking for my Corie, he just happened and I am so glad we are together. But anyways, that's really not the point.

I just hope my wedding in 19 months won't get in the way of anybody's feelings. I hope we can work this out as a team and there is no jealousy. Cuz it's the last thing I want. I want my friends to feel comfortable, hell I want everyone to feel comfortable and have fun, I'm no bridezilla!

Well I should go now. It's like 2:20 and I've listen to FYI like 8 times and I need to go to bed, my ipod can be update tomorrow. Bye bye now.

I'm Home

From a seemingly long con. It was a great one though. Lots of cool swag and some good memories, mixed with some not so good ones and some crazy ones too. I got video of drunk Maya and pictures of some crazy peeps. I'm not sure what kind of video I am going to make though. I do not think I have enough to even do what I wanted to do. I think what I really want to do will have to wait for AFO, but until then I will figure something out. I cosplayed all three days, twice on Sat. I am so proud of me. Holla!

You know I would totally give you a play by play of what happened on all three days, but it would just be too time consuming and I'm not sure if I want to do that. All that really happened was that we got major swag and basically chilled in our costumes and got bunches of free hugs. We had a drunk Maya on Friday night, and on Sat, a missing drunk and apparently lost Joe. On Sunday we did karaoke and we killed 'em! Hah! Now we are back home half dead, half sleeping zombies, waiting for Joe to come out so we can watch DVD's with him. Joe's my cousin by the way. Oh and let's see yeah, that's pretty much it.

Now, to go away from the subject for a bit. I remembered my high school friend's birthday with no reminders or anything like that. She was like a sister to me , so naturally I would remember. I sent her a happy birthday comment, in fact was the first person to do so and guess what? No reply. I get absolutely no reply from her. It upsets me because we were so close and now I don't even get a lousy "thank you". It's so freakin' incosiderate. It pissed me off because she has not commented on me since we fouind each other recently. I guess all those memories aren't worth a damn to her.

Well I have to go re-up my music to my itunes because itunes is sucking major ass right now. See yah.

Much <3