Through With This!

I'm done. Listen up! I will call the cops if you come around my home or my anywhere near my friends, I will file a harassment claim. I have kept the messages. I have all the evidence I need to make my claim If you come around here you are trespassing. And that is against the law. I am through with second chances. I have given you a million chances. I tried my best to make this work, but it didn't. I can't do this anymore. I do not need this drama in my life. I am a grown woman. I do not need this middle school drama anymore. I am very sick of it. I am through trying. I want to just live my life and be happy. I have done so much for you, spent so much for you, and ask nothing in return but friendship and respect. And you cannot give me that. So be it. Fine. But I am not having it. I don't want this in my life. And believe me I will call the cops if you come around here. I have already blocked your numbers. And you seem to have already blocked me from social networking sites, so that's that. We do not need to play games. Let's just move on and do our own thing. It obviously was not meant to be. And by the way, a gift is a gift is a gift. And by law you are not at all obligated to give back anything that was given to you as a gift. I have many witnesses for what progressed tonight. I am by no means threatening anyone. I just want this to be over and done with. No contact whatsoever. No communication. I don't want to see you again. Neither of you. Leave me alone, as well as my loved ones or I promise the cops will be involved. Just please leave me be. Leave me alone. Get out of my life. Please, let's just move on. Goodbye to you.

26 Years Old Today.

I hate to sound selfish, but it's my birthday and I am alone in my room, while everyone is more concerned about my cousin shipping off into the military. Mom pretty much told me, my birthday meal might not be for free. And my husband is working all damn day. He couldn't ask for the day off for me. For me!!! I am pretty sad right now, I feel so alone.

Wow...just...wow

I cannot believe what a self absorbed prick my cousin is when it comes to women. He treats them like dirt. He leads them off and then shoves them away. He changes women like he changes his underwear. Now I understand how he is going into the Marines and how no girl should be attached to him, but still when he cuddles with them and hangs with them and talks to them, this gives the girl the impression that he is interested. And then he doesn't even begin to be strait with them, he just secretly moves on to the next. This wouldn't normally be a concern of mine, but he is messing with my friends. It sucks that he would do this. It pisses me off. I hope these ladies understand that he is just a typical man and don't let his prickyness affect them. I really hope.

Really??

This blog post was supposed to be how I just got married and returned from the honeymoon. Oh happy day, etc, etc, but I feel as if I have gotten so much crap today I may as well go ahead and say what's on my mind.

I am tired of living at home. I wish I had enough money to move out. But I don't. I have to wait for the waiting list at low income housing to go down, so I can apply. Unfortunately I do not know how long that will take. It maybe be quite a while from now and until then I am stuck in this house. I do not feel that this house is a home at all. I do not feel like I can trust anyone. I feel suffocated in here. I feel as if I cannot breathe without having to ask anyone. I am always be lectured about something I did or didn't do and to tell you the truth I am quite sick of it. I am quite sick of hearing that I never help out, when I do or that I have an attitude or whatever. The only person is this house I can count on to not treat me like a little girl is my husband and my poor husband is too shy and passive to speak on our behalf. So we get these lectures at least once a month if not more. And then to top it off we get people in out faces about how we need to act, who we need to be, etc. Nobody even knocks our or damn door!

Uggh and the one person who I thought was on my side, just hurt my feelings about how we better give her a good b-day present b/c every year all we do is take her out to dinner and here I thought she had a good time going out with us. It was just plain rude to burst in here and tell me all the previous birthday gifts sucked. And she thinks that it wasn't out of line. Well you want to know out of line. Out of line was when all I asked for Christmas was a guitar and I got everything, but a guitar. All I wrote on the dam list was a guitar. But I have not mentioned that to you. Nope, kept my mouth shut, b/c it's not appropriate to bring up the past.

Thank you for making this day suck even more. I cannot wait until Corie comes home. I need Corie. I need my husband. Two hours of work left and he's home.