I Can't Do This

I am trying my best to look on the positive side of things, but I feel like there are none. I still don't have a job, I have no money to catch up on bills I currently own. I haven't hung out with my friends in a while. I am bored out of my mind. I am not motivated to anything other than cook and clean, but only because it has to be done. I hate this. I hate this and I just don't want to do it anymore.

The End....

Ok, so since I cannot go to my other journal and post this, I may as well out something here. My store is closing down and I am out of a job come June 9th. My husband and I have no money saved up and to top it off, I may or may not be pregnant. I don't want to be homeless. I want to be able to find a job quickly and be able to gewt the assistance I need. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. Thank you.

Oh.K.

I can honestly say without a doubt in my mind I am strait. Or at least maybe a bit superficial when it comes to the same sex. I didn't get turned on at all when I kissed my friend on a dare and in fact was a bit grossed out. I feel kid of bad for her. I don't think she will ever find anyone. She's so lost when it comes to sexuality and has probably watched way to much porn and hentai because she kisses so fakely. It's like why are you twisting and moving so much. Ewww. And she says the sexual fanatasies that turn her on are of anime. Like, really? No real person to get you going? If even it's a fake human being. At least it's a human being and not a cartoon. Cartoons are not real. I think I will never ever ever play Truth or Dare with her again. Traumatized!

Update!

I did none of those things I was supposed to do before Feb 17th b/c I moved out of the house and into my own apartment and changed our costume ideas anyway. We're gonna be ponies. More of this...later.