Lay Down Your Life

Pastor Joel is always talking about how men should lay down their lives for the women in their lives, and while he's preaching this message Corie seems to get it but when we are home, he doesn't practice this. He cannot do a little quick chibi drawing for me, it doesn't even have to be perfect, but he cannot pause his game to do it. He says wait 5 minutes and takes about 20 minutes and then gets pissed because I complain about it, which makes me me even more angry. I crumple the paper, because what's the use of having a sign if it isn't eye catching. It could only be eye catching if it's not plain, but he refused to draw on it, so I don't need it. Then he keeps on with his mouth and I throw the markers on the floor, he just picks them up. Then after we both try to get clam, I mention to him that I know what I would be doing right now to redeem the situation, but he says that he wasn't going to draw another one for me. And then when Ellie comes back from the bathroom he bring her into it, when she's completely innocent and says she won't get a ride home. WTF??? What the hell does that have to do with our argument ? Nothing. I made him apologize and then I made him leave my room and instead of taking that time to actually think of an apology he comes in here and tries to justify himself. Laying down your life for somebody means to drop waht it is you are doing to cater to them. I constantly make him feel better when he's down , feed him when he's hungry. I let him stay over here, even when I know he should go home. I even sometimes pay for his bills when he needs me to, but when I want him to draw a little fucking thing for me, he cannot do it!!! Arggh. You know what he came back and apologized, but he's still not trying to redeem self. If I have to tell him, it just isn't worth it. Grr.