I Know I Shouldn't

be worried, but I am. I am not just worried, I am scared. What kind of future will Corie and I have together if he cannot even tell me how he feels about himself, or certain other things. Why can't this man communicate with me ? Why is it so hard for him to tell me that he doesn't want to be this cookie-cutter normal guy, he wants to break out of this bubble of the norm and be a freak. I can accept it. I just don't want him to think that he has to. Corie is who he is and he shouldn't try to be someone he is not, especially if he does not talk to me about it first. I mean, I don't care if he decides to dye his hair blue and get ten thousand piercings, but I at least want to be in on it. I at least want to get my say in, I at least want to know why he feels the need to do so and what's going on in his head. I want him to hear my opinion and advices first before his does something that could perhaps change his life or how other view him. I will always love him no matter what, but I just want to communicate with him without getting I don't knows, or shrugs, or anything else that's indecisive or not an answer. I don't want to have to wonder. I want to know. I need to know. We are planning a future together. I want to know that he will be there with me for better or for worse, 'til death do us part, strike that death thing, I mean forever and ever.