Interpretation...

I figured since recently I had a really awkward and scary dream. I should try to find an interpretation of it. So maybe I can put myself and others at ease. I will bold whatever I think applies to me. So here we go....

To dream that you commit suicide, suggests that conditions in your life are so frustrating that you no longer want to deal with the situation or relationship. You may be harboring feelings of guilt that you cannot get over and thus turning the aggression on yourself. You need to start approaching problems from a different angle. Alternatively, it may suggest that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself and hello to a whole new you. It is symbolic of a personal transformation or a new stage in your life.

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To see a razor in your dream, suggests that there is a situation or problem that you need to smooth out.

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To dream that you are bleeding or losing blood, signifies that you are suffering from exhaustion or that you are feeling emotionally drained. It may also denote bitter confrontations between you and your friends. Your past actions has come back to haunt you. Women often dream of blood or of someone bleeding, shortly before or during their periods or while they are pregnant. If you dream that you are giving or donating blood, then it suggests that you are feeling physically drained due to stress.

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To hear evil, demonic laughing in your dream, represents feelings of humiliation and/or helplessness.

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To see your enemy in your dream, represents opposing ideas and contradictory attitudes. It also represents something that you are in denial about or someone whom you are rejecting. Enemies may also represent the enemies within yourself and the inner conflict you have with yourself. Consider the phrase "I am my own worse enemy.". Perhaps you are trying to rid yourself of those aspects of your character.

Ok, now that I figured that out, here's what I think...

I think I am beginning to understand the bigger picture here. I think the reason I had my dream is because I feel betrayed by my friends. Not a betrayal of trust or anything, but I feel they don't care about me as much as I care about them. I feel I am disposable and they will throw me away at any minute. I feel that I'm gonna lose them and when I do they won't even miss me. I feel we are growing further apart. And I cannot have that happen. I love my friends, especially _______. But I feel that we've drifted. I want her to understand that friends are friends forever. And I want her to understand and feel the way I do about friendship. Well I gotta go check my schedule.