Thanksgiving

well, thanks for the nice meal and the time spent with family, thanks for a day without arguing. But I've been thinking not about giving thanks, but about giving. Giving on holidays and birthdays, what I've given and what I've received. Is it really ok to keep something for yourself knowing that someone you love wants it just as much, if not more ?? Is it really ok to give you pretty close friend a gift that was bought and your best friend a gift that was recycled ?? Is it really ok to give your friend something that you like instead of what she wants ?? If it's the thought that counts than how come nobody ever thinks about what they are giving people. I know personally I put a lot of thoughts in the gifts I give, but sometimes I think I put too much thought in them, considering what I get from people is not nearly as special in the thought department. It hurts me.

Speaking of things that hurt me, I have not written in a few days, ok maybe a week and this is all due to the fact that I have been very sad lately, as my mom's sister, my Aunt Gloria, mom's only living full blooded relative left from her family (other than her kids, me and Donny) passed away this past Thursday and the whole family has been very sad. Even going to a convention didn't really cheer us up much, partly due to the fact that the con was in it's first year and highly unorganized, but we did find some really cool stuff and totally bought them. I decided to be generous and get my best friend a shirt that totally broke me. LOL, but whatevers it's what I do to show love.

Speaking of love, with all the love I show to people, I feel very under appreciated. I hate to sound vain, but this Thanksgiving Day, people oughtta be thankful for me.tH