Family Portrait

I hear my favorite cousin might be coming down to Florida due to a job opportunity. I hope she does, I haven't seen her in years! She'll be moving to Kissimmee if she does, which is only like 45 minutes away. Plus I get meet her kids, my little cousins. I really hope she gets this job. I miss her. I want to be close to her again.

And then you die!

So I guess it's a win win situation. Fuck this bullshit!

Tonight, Goodnight.

I am going to go ahead and post. Why? Because I said I wanted to start blogging more. Because I am not ready to say yes to sleep, because I really don't want this day to end, so that I have to go to work tomorrow. I am also procrastinating heavily on writing a letter to my new pen pal from Germany. I started it, but I cannot seem to find the motivation to finish it. I don't even have the motivation to finish this post. Too much on my mind. Too scared to continue.

Religion

People always complain about other people (mainly Christians) shoving religion down their throat. But the worst offenders in my life are those who do not believe in Christ...they insist facts and figures and say if you cannot prove it than it must not exist. Well cut it out! Let us believe in what we want and you believe in what you want.

I Can't Do This

I am trying my best to look on the positive side of things, but I feel like there are none. I still don't have a job, I have no money to catch up on bills I currently own. I haven't hung out with my friends in a while. I am bored out of my mind. I am not motivated to anything other than cook and clean, but only because it has to be done. I hate this. I hate this and I just don't want to do it anymore.

The End....

Ok, so since I cannot go to my other journal and post this, I may as well out something here. My store is closing down and I am out of a job come June 9th. My husband and I have no money saved up and to top it off, I may or may not be pregnant. I don't want to be homeless. I want to be able to find a job quickly and be able to gewt the assistance I need. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. Thank you.

Oh.K.

I can honestly say without a doubt in my mind I am strait. Or at least maybe a bit superficial when it comes to the same sex. I didn't get turned on at all when I kissed my friend on a dare and in fact was a bit grossed out. I feel kid of bad for her. I don't think she will ever find anyone. She's so lost when it comes to sexuality and has probably watched way to much porn and hentai because she kisses so fakely. It's like why are you twisting and moving so much. Ewww. And she says the sexual fanatasies that turn her on are of anime. Like, really? No real person to get you going? If even it's a fake human being. At least it's a human being and not a cartoon. Cartoons are not real. I think I will never ever ever play Truth or Dare with her again. Traumatized!